I can't wait

When you reach the proper age
I will teach you to read and you can turn the pages
How to dress and tie your shoes
Your one plus ones, and your two times two's
And you'll teach me
Of hearts and dreams
And all the most important things
And all that i have lost along the way
And I can't wait

As you grow, I'll show you things
How to ride your bike and kick your legs out on the swings
To fold your hands and bow your head
How to say your prayers before you go to bed
And you'll teach me
Of hearts and dreams
And all the most important things
And all that I have lost along the way
And I can't wait

How do you sleep so peacefully?
How do you trust unflinchingly?
How do you love so faithfully?
How do you dance so joyfully?
Oh you'll teach me
Of hearts and dreams
And all the most important (essential) things
And all that i have lost along the way
And I can't
No I can't
Come teach me
Of love and dreams
And all the most essential thing
And all that I have lost along the way
Cause I can't wait

Bittersweet life

As I sit here I can't help but to feel guilty... The guilt is settling heavy on me, the reason behind it is because this evening Alivia woke up crying now mind you that she has been sleeping through the night for several months now. I don't feel guilty because she woke up, I feel guilty because ever since the day she was born I couldn't wait until she slept through the night. Now she woke up and all she wanted me to do was rock her back to sleep, she laid her sweet head on my shoulder and fell right asleep. I couldn't help but to just keep rocking even after knowing she was already dreaming. I held on to her just as I held on to that moment.

I hate that I had wished she would grow up faster just because I wanted to get a good nights sleep. Now I wish that she would wake me up just to be given the chance to cuddle with my baby girl who seems to be on the go all the time.

Even within the past week alone she has changed. She no longer does the Army crawl she picked it up one day and now is crawling like a big girl. We have our races with no finish lines but "I'm gonna get you" can always make her go faster. She would much rather feed herself with 'her' bottle and jar foods are a thing of the past we want finger food, save the spoons for babies!

She always has been a show stopper out in public, she smiles at EVERY passing person. I think she has her own personal Operation Beautiful going on that she hasn't told anyone about. Now she not only smiles but she waves. She can point at her nose, momma's nose and probably your nose. The Puppy Chow commercials come on and she points saying Daw-ddy (not to be mistaken for Da-Da or Daddy, it's doggy).

This beautiful child of mine is blossoming before my eyes and quicker than the speed of light. Where has all this time gone? I can't imagine my life without her. It's no denying that life before her was quite simpler but I have grown to love this not so simple life and that is okay with me. From this day I will learn to cherish EVERY single moment and I will no longer wish she was just a little bit older to benefit my sleeping habits or any habits at that.

First Operation Beautiful note

Goes out to my daughter...

Operation Beautiful

I saw this and thought this was such a beautiful and wonderful idea. So today is going to be the first day of Operation Beautiful for me. Pictures to come soon!

"Though we travel the world over to find the beautiful, we must carry it with us or we find it not." ~Ralph Waldo Emerson

Can it get any better than this?

If ever there is tomorrow when we're not together.. there is something you must always remember. you are braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think. but the most important thing is, even if we're apart.. I'll always be with you.

As we travel through life...

As you travel through life there are always those times
When decisions just have to be made,
When the choices are hard, and solutions seem scarce,
And the rain seems to soak your parade.

There are some situations where all you can do
Is simply let go and move on,
Gather your courage and choose a direction
That carries you toward a new dawn.

So pack up your troubles and take a step forward
The process of change can be tough,
But think about all the excitement ahead

There might be adventures you never imagined
Just waiting around the next bend,
And wishes and dreams just about to come true
In ways you can't yet comprehend!

Perhaps you'll find friendships that spring from new things
As you challenge your status quo,
And learn there are so many options in life,

Perhaps you'll go places you never expected
And see things that you've never seen,
Or travel to fabulous, faraway worlds
And wonderful spots in between!

Perhaps you'll find warmth and affection and caring
And somebody special who's there
To help you stay cantered and listen with interest
To stories and feelings you share.

Perhaps you'll find comfort in knowing your friends
Are supportive of all that you do,
And believe that whatever decisions you make,
They'll be the right choices for you.

So keep putting one foot in front of the other,
And taking your life day by day...
There's a brighter tomorrow that's just down the road -
Don't look back! You're not going that way!